precise dimension of pain

the road to Golgotha is rutted

and bumpy; but once i am there
i find the skulls flattened, and easy
the way forward!

i had seen this again, and again

both in the primordial crucifixion
of Jesus of Nazareth, and later
in the fate of his followers!

help me , i pray, to see pain

in its precise dimension:
the wellness it brings to my self
a weight loss, pricking my bloated ego!
 

keep my soul away from that sickness

that inflates my self-importance
prior to the wellbeing and authentic
need of the flock i am shepherding

inspire me with courage to prevent

that fatted sheep pushing around
preventing the lean to enjoy freely
the providence, the food in plenty!