baffled by mercy

when i trust you

and put my hope hoping you

for me will make things work

with my field giving a plentiful harvest

and my cattle, numerously, multiply

you let me down badly

with your refusal

to open windows of heaven

for showers to fall on ground

instead

you open doors of pestilence

to strike my cattle

then i trusted you not

from you

nothing i expected

but you then

flood me with blessings, baffling

me with your unlimited mercy

henry victor     17.04.2003

cross roads!

you summoned me to serve

but i strive for success

you called me to work

but i vouch to win

you challenged me to crucify my ego

but i attempt to prolong my years

you beckoned me to be hopeful

but i venture to multiply my happiness

you christened me to quest for powerlessness

but i pile up power for many lives

you made me to love the other

but i dare to loot

you expected me to live your will

but i pray to impose mine

© henry victor     30.12.2003

hope: merge with the large

money, always, easily slipped

through my fingers

lands that i tried to own also slid

quickly from my hand

the bed i slept in the night

someone else secretly

occupied in the day

the juvenile bird i cuddled

in my bosom

to give warm comfort and a nest

flew away to build her own

my remains too, soon

the fire will consume

leaving, perhaps, my soul

to merge with that larger soul

that welcomingly smiles

from behind the veil

© henry victor