surrendering to defeat

hundred thoughts

through my head flow

like a fast flowing flood

one banging the other

with a hard negation

others modifying another

and none static

as an unmovable boulder

my anchors float

and the deck is scattered

shifting with speed

i drift directionless

searching

for strength deep within

questing

for help from far beyond

silently

i wail, whine

and weep

aloud

but nothing happens

except my drowning

deep

in the deepest waters

dragged into the mire

and unable to put my foot

on solid ground

i yell, i fight

and i fear

accepting my defeat

surrendering

to shame and blame

that wounds

henry victor    12.06.2010

winds and waves

winds, tough, have calm down

waves, huge, have now subsided

i am at perfect peace under ocean bed, buried

© henry victor     11.09.2006

a simple pleading

in your world every victory

i see carrying a defeat
wanting more
and bringing more!

teach me, therefore, the art

of living beyond that triumph
that i may spend none to shun
a potential beat!

pack my mind with poise

that i may walk the foot
in silence, paying no notice
to the throbbing of heart!

fill my marrow with calm

that marks that distant cosmos
that i never yearn
to journey, nor to fix!

make my eyes blind

both to tumult and success, detachment
that my heart may cease
the craving for more to find!