Monday, November 12, 2012
my new home
justin, my three-year old grandson
with his lego pieces built a house
on my coffee table, and a garden
beside, and for my car a driveway
who will cook in this house
from him i queried, for which
he responded quick, ‘thatha’
responding with similar speed
also to my second question
who will eat here
‘justin and thatha’
with no doubts about it
henry victor 12.11.2012
Note: The common Tamil word for grand-father is “thatha”.
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
the struggle
to remain a little longer under that blanket
in the space heated with my own body heat
i preferred but struggling against, in the same
time, idleness to live the ideal of an early riser
i win the battle but with an empty trophy
i wake but to empty trash for collection
to shorten a word to fit into an empty page
to re-naming empty, un-rhyming phrase as poem
do i complain, then, to heaven the unfairness
picking crumbs fallen from the table when
the partying is over and the music is stopped
as i still secretly hope the distant water to be real
for too many mirages i have witnessed
after driving many miles through the land
of opportunity, a journey I began leaving
my mother land to book my six foot space
henry victor 22.10.2012
an emerging poet
as i carefully chewed my snack to digest, to chew
it thinner and tinier than the sesame seed
i had just consumed, i noticed my face on left
side suddenly swelling, covering also my ear
prompting my daughter to drop me in the emergency
clinic where wires connected my beats to a heart
monitor that informed a confusing signal, also, confusing
the young doctor in his early stage of a long journey
my three-year old grandson, an emerging poet
next day narrated to a friend the story of a monster
from that broken building hitting his grandpa
on face and he took the old man to the hospital
henry victor 20.10.2012
Labels:
Image Creating,
Mythical Language,
Poetry in Making
Friday, August 31, 2012
next
men in turban sometimes i see
two other times i see three four
or even five seated around the picnic table
my rest stop beside the walking trail
they chat a chant in an alien tongue
effectively excluding others speaking
the language of the adopted soil
then i saw these men sitting on table
announcing another set of values to drive
others away from vicinity; they moved
one day to lay aged frames on platform
instead placing picnic food like others
as i probed what’s next they
vacated to the ground to sit around
playing a pack of cards one man even
waving as if inviting me to the game
but in heart i pondered who’s next
after my brother Rex, followed by mum
and dad, had crossed to the other side to play
that game none had come back to name
28.08.2012
Sunday, August 26, 2012
nature’s nostrils
did the poplars beat paper calendars
aren’t they nature’s nostrils to smell
air from far mountains, or that farther
coast carrying the frost to soon churn
them into soft snow to scatter in a sombremood melting human arrogance to move
faster and fly higher than the tallest hills
soon windows and doors will be shut
air-tight not to let grief of the deciduousto enter hearts of men, women, and children
creating new music behind barred doors
26.08.2012
Note: A painting done by Gitanjali Victor when she was 12 years old.
Note: A painting done by Gitanjali Victor when she was 12 years old.
Labels:
autumn,
change of seasons,
closed heart,
closed mind,
sesitive,
summer,
winter
Thursday, August 23, 2012
fear
my tiny brain frequently billets larger fears
letting the fungi like invisible roots
to enter my flesh, fibres, bones, and the soul
covering my mind with mildew of rottenness
this flesh inside my skull, now, freely gives
away odour displeasing to my inner nostrils, my heart
transforming my psyche to that of a restless dog
running from one day to another with the tongue out
this thorn in my head, the many dreads dwelling
inside my flesh will come out only with a sharper one
the brain boarding a bigger fear belittling my brain
by flushing content with fleshing of a grander vision
22.08.2012
letting the fungi like invisible roots
to enter my flesh, fibres, bones, and the soul
covering my mind with mildew of rottenness
this flesh inside my skull, now, freely gives
away odour displeasing to my inner nostrils, my heart
transforming my psyche to that of a restless dog
running from one day to another with the tongue out
this thorn in my head, the many dreads dwelling
inside my flesh will come out only with a sharper one
the brain boarding a bigger fear belittling my brain
by flushing content with fleshing of a grander vision
22.08.2012
Labels:
fear,
fear of God,
love of God,
Transcendence
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
strangers
destiny walks in the familiar mall
with unknown kind and colour
dress, dodging me always
lest i stop to converse with her
forever she remains hidden
to my eyes like the hiddenness
of my own soul so close
yet unfamiliar as hiddenness
of that life-giving life
blinded to my mind, intellect
with neither logic nor vocabulary
to affirm or deny with confident collect
14.08.2012
Labels:
agnostic,
destiny,
familiar,
God,
hiddenness,
little known,
person. stranger,
place,
soul,
unknown
curled tail
dawning dusk of my life to enhance
a sense of a companionship
in an abode abandoned by a pet bitch
of over three decades i brought in a dog
whose tail was curled like
the mind of a retarded human
that i tried to uncurl repeatedly
but succumbing to un-success
unwittingly also enhancing
loneliness adding extra weight
and cluttering luggage reconfirming
van Gogh’s ‘misery never ends’
14.08.2012
Monday, August 13, 2012
leech
leech, that boneless, the loss
of purpose inching to suckall the blood from my soul
has begun munching my mind
already weakened by a lack
of exercising, a disciplined readingwith dishing out to followers
acquired wisdom, the sweet cake
being stagnant too long in one
spot and anchored in a deadlove makes it easier for leech
to bring life to a screeching halt
11.08.2012
Labels:
existence,
existentialist,
meaning,
meditation,
reflection,
self-critique
Sunday, August 12, 2012
freedom
knowing not from where i came
or to where i am going, in confusion
i called the freedom to wash feet
of another my servitude
now lying naked with more naked
whom i freely choose lettingthem freely caress my sensitive
spots i embrace enslavement
my being is blind to the line
dividing freedom that comesfrom embracing a responsibility
but with joy and pleasures, lust
09.08.2012
Friday, August 10, 2012
letting go
folly in mind holds tight what is not
his hurting heart refusing to release
energy required to see beyond
the current bog holding being
like a dead elephant with legs up in air
from becoming the flying soul
with power to soar higher heights
than the strongest eagle
plummeting to bottomless
pit, un-retrievable now until
he learns the art to un-attach
the enslaved enslaving one
03.08.2012
Labels:
hold not tight,
Let Go,
move,
move forward
generosity
she was very generous
giving her all to me for three
and a half decades like the land
my mother had to sustain us
she sneaked the same to others
as well before i woke from sleep
like sharing a stimulating coffee
in cups that i sipped from
someone else fairer is
the lucky unlucky one
enjoying her all with her
old habit of extending grace
04.08.2012
Labels:
generosity,
lovelessness,
lust,
selfishness
picknicking
again the four men like gulls
are loud at the picnic table
crossing my path on the walking trail
that i cautiously chose
listening
attentively to the heart
and mind of my ears
and eyes, my invisible being
now tired of men, women, children
and automobiles
with deafening noise level
damaging my fragile ear drums
in this step fatherly
land these men in mother
tongue make up with such excess
for the scarcity of picnicking
07.08.2012
Labels:
immigration,
loudness,
nature,
noise,
pollution,
prospects of human migration,
simple event,
snap shot
cardboard box
not a recyclable cardboard
box am i
yet considered a garbage
out there
waiting to be transported
removed
from the face, the familiar surface
with my face already
removed to be carted with neither
labour nor fuel
recyclable cardboard
box if i were
i would not be considered a garbage
out there
instead baled up and thrown in the back
of a truck
along with tons of cardboard
to be carted
for miles to that hydro-pulper to soak
my face, my whole being
giving me a new identity
for a cardboard box unlike me
has a second chance, another life
08.08.2012
Monday, August 6, 2012
furthest star
i constantly smell, hear
and continuously see voices
from beyond, clearly, from right within
my heart; then with the aid of mind
i ponder without funking the infuriating
experience, a life more authentic
making my mortal soul into a state
of dreaming thoughts of divine essence
these provocative dreams
nay, the violent thunder clapping
make me a stormy storm impregnating
my tender being with lightning, lightning
spontaneously gathering around snarling
quarrelling and discord leading
me at the end to Golgotha the empty
scull but hoping that one day though
comprehended much late like the dim light
of the star that is furthest, so at last
my soul shall enlighten innocent children
13.02.1995
Note: Is Justin, my grandson, painting a picture or crafting a poem? His is a piece of art!
Thursday, August 2, 2012
releasing the anchor
fear of depth and hesitation
mind’s preoccupation
with shark is only in the shore
the beginning of a voyage
an opening of a business
further in open sea challenge
is to enjoy those gulls mindlessly
surfing, sitting on the ocean
as rowing your little vessel
continues, like a walking exercise
of a man stingy with time,
to cross the chasm
02.08.2012
Labels:
change,
courage to change,
courage to move forward,
growth,
new knowledge,
newness
gossip
poetry is an art of playful gossip
with focus of that chatter
dressed colourfully for mind’s eye
to catch the butterfly
fluttering around like a gossip
in a metaphor concealing the nakedness
with pubic hair jutting out
making head to turn away
02.08.2012
Labels:
creative writing,
gossip,
Poem,
poetry,
slander
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
conversation
four tall men in five hundred
year old tradition of wearing a turban
were seated on picnic seats
beside my walking trail
did the Punjabi men in conversation
content of which sounded Greek
exclude me for what they knew
or for sake of an art i failed to learn
01.08.2012
optimism
chipped, truly cracked, broken
is my windshield of the vehicle
my automobile that gave my soul
the mobility and the speed to move
that’s my nest, my family, my all
in which i lived, swiftly moved
had my being creating and crafting
my toy toying with my time, my eternity
but George sees this whole in future
un-chipped, un-cracked, un-broken
this hope, or that un-real, the ostrich
total blindness, an optimism
30.07.2012
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
night heron
roaming foxes
and creeping pythons
provoke not poetry
in night heron
that challenges me
with her silence
and unsung patience
before flying
with splendid colour
of a slim structure
reminding, also, the need
to anchor in hope
of a better tomorrow
a faith in universal care
and abandoning speed
for anxious moving
henry victor
14.01.2002
Labels:
faith,
generous nature,
Hope,
patience,
providence,
self-help,
Silence,
Spirituality
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
give give
‘tha-tha’ that sound
the Tamil word for grandpa
from justin’s lips
is the sweetest in my ears
‘tha’ in that dialect
means give, or give me
making ‘tha-tha’ to mean
give, give, or give me, give me
‘give, and give me
your time, your love
and your all
to fill this tin
just for fun
tha-tha’,
dreams my grandson
my little big man
Labels:
affection,
grandfather,
grandson,
Love,
play
Friday, May 25, 2012
in search
cool, cloudy, windy, and gloomy
yet i drive to Cold Lakeand on road, i see none
except, occasionally, another clown
but driving opposite
still a little snow
not yet meltedand i am sleepy
trying hard to keep awake
while steering my wheel
i’m inside my car
only gently hotand, like my luck, i just passed
the high way to Red Water
the 700 million gasoline barrel hamlet
but Smoky Lake
the pumpkin capital of Albertai did enter
not for eating
but a drive through was my purpose
passing the village of Vilna
copulating scene i sawwhile the eagles on roadside tree
disregarded me, a peeping tom
but with dislike towards a villain
once young and fertile
land, after being caressed, harassedharvested, and, many times, ransacked
now abandoned like that old grandmother
in care centre, are those reserves
discarded cars, buses, and many
disposed automobiles with farm machineriesscattered through the countryside
with derelict log houses and desolate barns
speak loudly of the human greed
Spedden, the little settlement
with two Ukrainian catholic churcheswith hardly a space for secular breathing
caught my attention
but with that Chinese restaurant
i continued to speed
in search of what i know notlamenting not my passing Lamont
that city living country style
perhaps, the undeveloped basement
Elk Island was my hope
in that journey on that wintry springa few buffaloes, a few elks, a beaver
if i’m lucky, that’s all i needed
to see to believe in human race
Labels:
driving,
playing with words,
stress-free life
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Stopping at Plamondon
When I'm sick in the city
I drive through the country
To see the farmland outside the city
But this time I did stop at Plamondon
To pay my homage to the Albertan men
Who canonized St. Isidore
The Holy Farmer from Spain
There I prayed for a celestial vision
And angels I did summon
To help me overcome the temptation
To enjoy the return
That I have never sown
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Others May But I Cannot
While millions go without a square meal a day
I cannot pray for more food for myself
While thousands of children die of starvation
I cannot pray for my daily food
While many suffer without human dignity
I cannot pray for God’s gift
Below
on earth when people struggle for their existence
Like a
worm that struggles when bitten by antsLooking up to heaven I cannot pray that I be elevated
Like a palm tree that grows heavenward
Faithless
women and men pray for more blessings
Instead
of saying enough is my greedinessAnd sharing even the last grain with seven others
14.08.1986
Spare Wheel
Sparsely used second-hand spare wheel am I
Tightly screwed down below the dark deck
Shut out of sight, sitting stoically nearer to street
I stroke, or touch not that passing path
Except in very, very rare circumstances
When one of them becomes indisposed
But only for a dreadfully short moment
Then I am tightly fastened once again
In that very same stealthily secret space
In a planet where sharing is just a concept
Sparsely
used second-hand spare wheel am I
Not inside
an exciting sportive automobileBut in the precinct of wheeling and dealing of divine
Labels:
bulling,
discrimination,
insecurity,
professional jealousy,
Racism
Sunday, April 22, 2012
tattoo
she tattooed my face on the skin
of her back
sculpting my enemy’s on her bone
deep inside
but all that i needed from her
was a whisper in my earand that she walked to my table
to sip my wine, my pain
squeezed from those grapes
of my joys, that unfoldingof her frame in that grotto
inside the cave of my heart
a re-arranging of cells
in my brainthat dictated my past memory
and future path of my limbs
as they walked to my grave
the real sleep, with unreal dreamsset aside, to my re-embracing
my mother’s womb
15.04.2012
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
naivety
naivety made me think a relationship
is actually carved from my own rib bonewith my flesh fleshing and blood thickening kinship
spicing with dreams and breathing a vision
such sculpture i thought will survive beyond
my demise and grave, that pitor furnace, where all are eventually eased
leaving the living to fashion an eternity
reality, however, revealed my stupidity
and re-taught, with hard knock on headthat dead figurines are bought and sold in market
with contracts scattered like sperms, or torn
© henry victor
Labels:
breaking contracts,
bubble,
divorce,
impermanence,
separation
Thursday, March 15, 2012
perfect pearl
trapped inside that shell
underneath that ocean bedi a perfect pearl
wait for a hand that knows
both the craft and the world
of commerce to pick meto transact a sale
filling wallet and my heart
13.03.2012
Labels:
greatness invisible,
needs to be discovered,
patience,
waiting
dance with peace
alone i stand short like that smashed glass
ready to be scattered, to be interred inside
a grave yard with my brokenness
in body, mind, soul, and human ties
but with full of sap, that thick and thin
life affirming and life giving spirit alivewith masks thick and thin discarded
for dance naked with no dress rehearsal
to continue into eternity, a land
absent of ego and confusionswith love reigning and love raining
continuously i shall dance with peace
12.03.2012
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Sunday, February 26, 2012
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
croaking this night
i am locked behind the locked door
with ground outside frozen with snow
and trees around the house are nude
to hide nakedness of that brighter bird
my prying eyes, however, pry on fate
feeling with inside of my palm her formplacing on chest my ear to feel her heart
the pulse that direct my soul in the route
my baggage is heavy and burdensome
with my mind racing to many victorieswith no single victory stand to alight
and i, a frog, croak to death this night
20.02.2012
Sunday, February 12, 2012
change
with garments of silky humility
you entered my orchard
tasting and eating from trees
i planted and watered
with my own sweat and blood
but soon you cut open fences
of all four sides of my grove
like that military enemy
implementing Tamil genocide
unclothed now you also invitedstrange men to my teak bed
making it comical for them
driving me into neighbourhood
new and derelict to be servicedby the Edmonton food bank
and other drop in centres
11.02.2012
Labels:
betrayal,
broken promise,
destitute,
flirting,
unfaithfulness,
victim of betrayal
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