forgive me for seeking forgiveness

foolishly i feel guilty

and turn to you for mercy

and pardon in the past

many times

for sins of my adolescent

and youth-filled years

for wrongs

i was not responsible

but dictated and delivered

beyond my will

by the testosterone

or another hormone

deposited deep within self

forgive me now

for seeking forgiveness

and deny me help

if out of lazy foolishness

i turn to you

instead of investigating

deep within my body

and mind

the way to control

my urge

henry victor      22.02.2007