way forward easy

the road to Golgotha

is rutted and bumpy

but once there

i find the skulls flattened

and the way forward

easy

i had seen this again, and again

both in that primordial crucifixion

of Jesus, the Nazarene

and later in the fate

of his followers

help me, i pray

pain in its precise dimension

i see

and the wellness

that it brings to self

particularly

the weight loss

it leads to

the pricking

that happens

to my bloated ego

keep my soul

away from that sickness

of inflating my self-importance

prior to the wellbeing

and the authentic need

of my flock

i am shepherding

help me

courageously prevent

that fatted sheep

pushing around

or preventing the lean

to enjoy freely

that food in plenty

your providence

henry victor           22.03.2008

present and future

i was schooled to think it is my inalienable right

to plan my life, both private and professional
in advance; but now i learn a tune very different:
this planning is a privilege of only the privileged

sequence of events yesterday

forced me to forsake today
my dreaming and working
to the end of tomorrow

today i’m left with that narrow way

a road with road less ahead found among
living every day as it is my last
walking in faith with a sense of duty

plodding as though a great future

still lay before me
now i think and act not for my sake
but for the new generation

my daughter’s, taking each day as

it comes without fear or any anxiety
that is the spirit in which i now subsist
persuaded to live in my daily practice

but those who hold the key

do not make it easy for me
to stay brave and move forward
yet i do since i’m already schooled

© henry victor     03.07.2003